Life's unpredictable..

Well, as far as that old friend goes, he recieved his answer: Priesthood.
I'm happy for him, there's such a shortage of good priests in the world, and he will make a wonderful one! He's very understanding and caring, which are good virtues for a priest dealing with parishinors. I have to admit though, I cried when he told me, I wasn't 100% on how I felt for him, but I knew that I did care for him more then just the friends we were. My hearts alittle sore, I'm not sure why, but it is.
But who am I? He will be marrying the Church, who am I to claim to be higher then that?
God has a need of him, more then I.

I wonder at times if "Mr. Right" got hit by a bus on his way to me, but I'm still young, and while I could use "Mr. R's" support at the moment, he will come when the time is right, not a second before and I'll just have to wait....But dont think that means I'm giving up. Nope, I've never been one to know when to give up! I'm going to hold on, I will go to college and meet some new friends, keeping that old song in mind of course. "Make new friends but keep the old. One is siliver the others gold!"

As for now I'm going to focus on college, and hope my friendship with the to-be religious stays the same and isn't effected. On the bright side, maybe Mr. Right is waiting at college for me! LOL One never knows!

But as for now this little kunoichi needs to hit the sack! She will update again soon!

Farewell!

Happy Easter (A little late)

Well April is almost over, Easter was wonderful!

I received Tangled (YAY)  and the last book of my series Ranger's Apprentice (DOUBLE YAY)
 I am obsessed with Tangled a wee bit, before you even ask!I know all the songs, and most of the funniest lines, I think I've watched it about five times since I got it. I just finished book 10, much to my brother's joy! (Did I mention there is now a line of friends waiting for that book? It is the VERY last one.) And guess what it's Japanese inspired! TRIPLE YAY!!!! It actually was very insightful about the culture, and manners of Old Japan. I'm looking forward to the classes I'll be taking for my minor all the more.


Ah well, I know it's short, but there's a paper I would like to upload later, but most spell check it.

Till next time
Rose

Hello again!

So things are slowong down a bit as April comes to close, just a few more college things to care for and my brother has to sign up for his classes but other then that it's smooth sailing here on out.

I got signed up for classes, so I'm offically a freshman now, or a baby dragon as I was called by other students. I rather like that nickname, very cute! LOL

Here's a list of my classes for Fall 2011

Basic Drawings I
Foudations of Design I
Astromomy
Internatiol Relations (Poltical Science)
Health ( Basics of college life etc.)

I'm happy I got alot of the classes and times I wanted.

Mom, Sophia (7) Anthony (8), and I drove up sunday afternoon, and stayed in a hotel. None of us slept very well. We got up at 6:20 and had breakfast, my nerves started to set in and I got alittle sick to my stomuch. That cleared up soon though, so not so bad.

We headed to campus about 7:45, got alittle lost, and got there at 8;00, coulnd't find a parking spot, and actually ended up getting one right in front of the building we needed! How cool is that! Took my test, did ok.

Signed up for classes, eat lunch, talked with other art majors the works. Lots of fun. I love my college. Not too big, not too small, very pretty and open. Everything is about 10 minute walk apart, so no running needed, all my classes are spaced out nicely. I'm excited for the fall now!

By the end of the day the kids were getting antsy, so I only got to talk to my friend for about 20 minutes, but it was nice. We talked about classes and the campus and about a thousand other things. It was lots of fun!

So all and all I'm excited!

Oh and for FYI I ended all contact with my ex a couple days back. It was something I really needed to do, and finally had the strength to.

So until next time
farewell!

Birthday fun!

Well I'm 19, one year older, another year wiser...or so the saying goes!

It was a eventful day, full of fun and a few surprises.

I kicked off the fun yesterday afternoon, shooping with Mom. We were looking for a nice outfit to wear for Grad pictures. We found adorable purple skirt, covered with roses, and as almost a tutu look in the cut, with two teirs in a straight base. (If that made any sense to you, YAY!) and a lovely black shirt with a cute ruffled (not too ruffled) neckline to match! Accent with a beautiful new necklace and matching earrings and TA-DA I'm picture perfect!

We also found a cute camo shirt to match my green skirt, and a bright blue tank top to match my white one. A cute white see-through shirt to throw over the both of those and it's a nice look I can wear any where! Of course that included getting a blue necklace/braclet set to go with my new outfit. (I already had accents to match my green look) Top it off with some cute purple circle earrings with a lace like pattern, with a rose and a moon. Mom said she just had to get them for me...I wasn't going to say no I love them! And so ended Sunday's fun.

Today Dad bought doughnuts, and I opened my other gift from my parents. A cute little bear statue with the little "R" it is tucked safely away till it heads up to my dorm in Augest. Mom and I went shoe shopping and found a cute pair of black wedges that I love! We met Dad at the Japanese steakhouse and I had sushi! Mom and Dad tried it too, we all loved it! The chef cooks right in front of you, it was so neat. He made a volcano out of an onion and set it on fire! COOL HUH?? He even made it "erupt"! Needless to say that was alot of fun! I had a nice time with my parents, and we got to talk alot about college and the recent things that have been going on including my break-up with my first boyfriend, and the surprising letter I recieved from an old friend. It was nice not to be inturpted every five minutes or so for once.

I recieved a reply today from my old friend. I don't know if he knew it was my birthday or not, but it was a lovely birthday surprise. He told me that he wasn't sure what God was calling him to as a vocation yet, and he doesn't want to get involved with any girl, other then friendship, at the moment until he has a clearer picture of what's in store for his future. He did tell me though that the "barriers" he placed up when tempoary and he hoped our friendship could grow to something more. well fingers crossed!

But in honesty, I'm sort of relieved he's not ready to commit to a relationship at the moment. I need time to get over my fear of being hurt again. I don't want to spoil another relationship by rushing into it, and I don't want to hurt him, or get hurt myself. I know pain is a part of life, but he is a very dear friend and I would hate to lose his friendship because we rushed into something when we weren't ready and we got burned...

So as for now I think we'll just spend the summer getting to know each other better, and we'll see what happens.

All and all I had a wonderful day my family and friends made me feel very special and loved. So thank you everyone!

Good night

Rose

A Little Hope -Based on a True Story

I laid there breathing heavily. I clutched that little medal close to my heart. The cold sweat on my body was making my clothes stick to my skin, silently I prayed. "Sweet Mary, help me."

My name is Richard Colins, private in the US military, I was stationed in Vietnam at the time, and one moment caused my life to flash before my very eyes.

I stood at the lines, the gunfire was deafing, in the chaos and confusion I barely knew what was happening. Suddenly a blinding pain shot up my leg, the warm sticky blood ran down, my knee buckled under me and I collapsed. I laid there, trying to understand what just happened as the gun contiuned to roar about me. Slowly I crawled under the heavy under brush of the jungle, doing what seemed natural, I ripped part of my shirt off, and binded my leg, trying to stop the flow of blood. Slowly the gunfire ceased, and I began that long cruel game known as waiting. There I laid, under those thick vines and heavy brush, praying my life wouldn't end in this land so far from where I called home. Praying my life would be spared, just long enough to see that dear family I left behind, that young woman who wore my ring on her finger. I closed my eyes, picturing her sweet face. Suddenly my eyes snapped open, branches crunched under heavy army boots. Could my troops have found me so fast? I nearly threw cation to the wind and dragged myself from my hiding spot when I heard those strange voices thick with that unknown accent. I quickly said a prayer, and moved farther under the brush, they stood so close I could have reached my hand out and touched their legs. My hair stood on end. What if they discovered me? With my knee most likely shattered from the bullent I could niether run or put up a fight. Would my family's only knowledge of me was an missing in action letter? After ten long antognizing minutes, they conutined on their way, leaving me hoping and praying that the next soliders to come along would be my own. As their footsteps faded away I finally dared to breath once again. .

After two long hours of clutching that medal and praying, my brain was begining to fade. I closed my eyes, faint with loss of blood abd losing hope. The sound of men making their way through the brush was dully relized, I didn't even have the strentgh left to hope. Silently I prepared myself. This was the end for me. I thought, that girl was conutine to never see me again, as I said this to myself I heard voices. At first I didn't care, but then something dawned on me, those familiar accents, it was Amercian! Those were my men, looking for me, atleast that's what I hoped. I scrambled out of the brush as fast as I could, loss of blood and relief left me weak and shaking, laughing like a mad man. Admist the strange and shocking looks I recieved from my comrades, there were a few laughs and cheers. In a makeshift litter I was carried back to base, as soon as I was well enough to travel I was givin an honorable discharge on medical reasons. After a long recovery I married the girl of my dreams, whose letters kept me fighting on.

I gave that little medal away to someone else in need one day, and I hope they might do the same. I'll never forget the day I thought the last thing I would rest my eyes on would be the little Mircleous Medal.

Sweet Mary, help us in the hour of our need.


(To be continued)

By Rose

Season of Change

Well as Winter finally comes to a close, and a new Spring is heralded in by the calls of the birds returning to their summer homes, the winds of change blow....

First of all I finally put the nose to the grindstone, I'm heading to college.

April 11th I hit my last year as a teenager, yes my 19th birthday....oh boy...
April 14th is the pre-trial for my baby brother's adoption...
On the 18th I head up to campus to sign up for classes, and tour the grounds. Yep it will be offical on that date.

Then of course comes Easter season, one of my favorite times of the year.

But on top of this as I mentioned before my first boyfriend and I ended our very rocky realationship. It ended well, no hard feelings, no angry words, all and all it was a nice break-up. He even sent me a birthday card, I got a kick out of the song, Kiss him goodbye. Yep, he should check the song title next time!

But that's not all, lately an old friend and I have reconnected, an old crush so to speak..He sent me a unexpected letter with very suprising things to say. Though he didn't come straight out and say yay or nay to the time-old question of "Does he like me?" Various friends and even my mother get that impression....I try not to get my hopes up.. He is a gentleman in every way and I know would treat me nice, so I would be more then willing to move to the next level, taking things slow of course, but I also know he is considering Priesthood.... Well I guess I will have to see what pans out on the 18th where I will (hopefully) see him on campus... Did I mention we may be attending the same college next year?? That is if he doesn't go to CA and leave me to brave the cold northern front alone, while he enjoys the warm sweet rays of the golden sun...

At the moment I'm hoping I didn't ruin a very good friendship, but as I said only time will tell.....

So as I enter this crazy month we call April, allow me to ask for prayers to keep me sane and in one piece so I can survive the next month known as May, which is going to be another FUN month....

Your Kunoichi,
Rose

I don't wanna be like Cinderella

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hmiOyXepbsc

Nope, the fairy tale life- isn't for me, I don't wanna be like Cinderella, sittin in a cold dark dusty cellar, waiting for someone to save me....

I have a Prince Charming out there somewhere, but I'm not going to just sit around waiting for him to ride up, No waiting isn't for me!

I am a girl who loves to have fun! And so fun show the way, and when Prince Charming is ready, he'll find me laughing and handling life with alittle help from friends, Mt dew, and that preious thing called Snickers.

Rose

This cycle is over.....

Well, I did it, ended the up and down cycle with my first boyfriend. Yep Mom wasn't kidding when she said it might not last!

We went strong for a year, but as soon as he moved to FL and the fall breeze blew we took a turn for the worse. We did a quiet break-up and make-up, followed by breaking off our engagement in Oct. much to the surprise of our mutal friends and priest. One thing led to another and we were on again, off again couple. (the kind I hate, never wanted to be) We had a huge break-up Christmas Eve, followed by a make-up in Jan. followed by yep another break-up, and so on and so on.

Why? do you ask. Simple we moved WAY too fast WAY too soon, and I needed someone to help me heal from a bad time the year before. He knew what to say to make me feel good, but lately it was more he knew what to say to make me feel bad. So it's over, I'm not sure how much gusto he has to keep it the way it is, ot if a couple weeks go by and it'll be the same "I miss you, I'm sorry" story all over, but nope I'm not going for that... It's too much to handle anymore, besides I've got college coming!!!

But he was nice enough to give me the money to pay for my housing fee (which is not cheap) for a birthday present, so I thank him for that! (Thanks Fish) but as for further news, I got a very interesting letter from an old friend....who knows what will come of it....

Well my fellow hobbits, elven-friends, or mortal men, as you may be,
as once said parting is such sweet sorrow.

(I'm reading Lord of the Rings, so hush it. And I love Shakespeare!! LOL!)

Rose